It's that time of the year again. New year, new me? Hope I didn't make your inner hipster cringe. However, I feel like new year's resolutions aren't all that bad. I feel like it's actually very healthy and important to set some goals for yourself at the beginning of the year. So I want to talk about not only my personal goals for 2017, but also about the goals I did and especially didn't achieve in 2016. It's important to acknowledge what you still want to achieve (what most people do), what you've already achieved, and, maybe most importantly, what you didn't achieve. In my opinion, these things are inevitable. I personally feel like people change constantly. There's only one constant in life; and that's that nothing is constant. Looking back at your life and see how much you've changed and have grown as a person is essential for setting new goals you want to achieve. So that's what I'm going to do today: exactly 365 days later I'm going to give you a recap of my failures, success and dreams this last year.
I'm starting with 2016. You can read the whole blogpost I did about my not so cliché life goals for 2016 here.
MY GOALS OF 2016.
Do more with philosophy.
Check. If there's one goal I definitely nailed this year, it's getting reconnected with philosophy again. Aside from my Research Master in Law, I'm doing a Bachelor in Philosophy of a Scientific Field this year, and I'm so happy that I did. 'How could I ever study law without (almost) any philosophical topics?' is the question I'm asking myself. Although it was scary to add another Bachelor to my already pretty heavy Master, I have no regrets. It was definitely one of the best decision I made this year.
Acknowledge my weaknesses and work on them.
Check. One of my biggest goals in 2016 was to focus on myself. I wanted to do this, because I've always been the type of person that kind of lost herself in a relationship, if that's even a thing. 2016 was the first year I've been (almost) completely single. Therefore, it was already a very different year for me to start with. I've noticed that now that I was single, I had way more time for self-reflection and self-realization. I didn't have to focus on anybody else except me. I could start figuring out what my weaknesses were and how I could better myself as a person. I still have a long road ahead of me before I can say I really 'fixed' them, but this year was definitely a step in the right direction.
Be the best friend you’ve ever had.
Check, I guess? I find it pretty hard to judge myself, but I feel like I definitely haven't let my friends down this year either. Most of my friends I've known for years. I always like to say I don't have friends - only best friends. With me it's really all or nothing.
Pass my Bachelor in Law Cum Laude.
Unfortunately no check. I did pass my Bachelor of Laws (LL.B) with a 8/10 this year, however I had one 6, so I didn't end up getting my cum laude. I'm not gonna lie, this was very hard for me to accept. I didn't want to talk about it, because I felt like a failure and I was ashamed of myself. I was really hard on myself and I've definitely lost my passion and motivation for law for a long time. Now I've finally made peace with it and I'm able to share this with you.
Grow my Youtube channel to 10.000 subscribers.
Big fat check. I can't even believe that I thought it would be hard to reach the 10.000 Youtube subscribers in 2016. I started this year with 5.000 subscribers, yet now I'm almost hitting the 100.000! It makes me feel so grateful knowing that so many amazing people like you (yeah, you!) are following and supporting me. So once again, thank you and let's hit the 100k this year (you can subscribe to my Youtube channel here).
This is one of the reasons why I love writing down my goals. If I wouldn't have written these things down, I'm sure that I would find it hard to say what I've actually achieved this year. Sometimes I focus to much on the negative, the things that I didn't achieve, and I forget to look at the successes I actually did have. Now that I've shared my personal goals with you on my blog, I can actually really compare what I wanted at the beginning of 2016 and were I am now, at the end of it. I've reached 4/5 goals I've set out for myself this year, and I think that's pretty damn great. I feel like writing things down, visualizing them, thinking about them, are essential for actually reaching the things that you want - law of attraction vibes, haha. That's why I'm also going to share the not so cliché goals with you I have for 2017.
BE OKAY WITH BEING ALONE
This goal is very important for me this year: being okay with being alone. Don't take me wrong: I'm a very independent person, I love my space and I can easily be enjoy myself when I'm alone. However, sometimes I feel like I do get lonely. I can't really pinpoint why I suddenly get this overwhelming feeling of loneliness, but it happens. And sometimes, it tears me down af. I feel like some decisions in my life would be different, probably better, if I wasn't afraid of feeling alone. That's why I want to start accepting loneliness more this year. I want to be okay with being alone when I'm going to stay in NYC and I want my happiness to exist independently from other people. I want to love being with myself, and realize that I don't need anybody to be happy and to feel loved.
BE MORE CONSCIOUS ABOUT MY HEALTH
In 2017, I really want to step up my game when it comes to my health. The previous 2 years, actually since I quit figure skating professionally, were not the best years health wise. I'm not as fit as I used to be and I don't feel as good in my own body as I used to. That's why I really want to start eating more healthy (I became vegetarian this year, so maybe I can become vegan in 2017?) and work out more. I just want to go back to how fit I was before!
BELIEVE IN MYSELF (EVEN MORE)
I'm a confident person. I feel like if I really want something, I will get it. Not because I'm so lucky, but because I'm so goal-driven and I'm not afraid to work my ass of to achieve something. However, sometimes I do still doubt myself. And I don't want to do that anymore. I feel like doubt is one of the most toxic thoughts we as a human person can have. It's like one of those famous sayings: The only person standing in your way is you. So that's why I want to believe even more in myself and my dreams this year than I already did.
Pass my Master in Law Cum Laude.
Although my master is 2 years, I 'only' have to finish the first year with an average of an 8 or higher to pass it cum laude. So although I didn't manage to do it with my Bachelor, I'm not going to lose hope: this time I will nail it!
FIND A BALANCE
Last, but definitely not least: trying to find balance. Not only is that one of my favorite songs of Atmosphere, it's also my biggest, most constant struggle in life (guess it has to do something with my zodiac, haha). Despite the fact that I know a lot of you think like I've figured out this perfect life balance - I haven't. There are still so many improvement that can be made when it comes to balancing my blog, Youtube channel, university, social life and health. But I guess those will come in 2017.
MY GOALS FOR 2017.
This year I have new 5 goals. I wanted to think of some more, but I feel like reaching these 5 goals (or at least, pursuing them) is already challenging enough. With that being said, I would love to know what your goals are for the new year. Although a lot of people hate new year's resolutions, I actually think it's very helpful and healthy to really think about which direction you actually want to take your life in the upcoming year. If you want to, you can share your goal(s) in the comments down below - just like I did here. ;)
Anyways, once again: thank you for all your support in 2016 in this journey of mine. Sometimes I still can't believe that this is actually my life. Although I had some difficulties, I would never, ever, ever change it for the world. The best things are yet to come. So thank you, for always being there for me. I love you. <3
WHAT ARE YOUR GOALS FOR 2017?