PERSONAL | My Life Lessons of 2016.

2016. Only 4 numbers that symbolize every second, every emotion and every memory I feel and have felt this past year. Only 4 numbers, yet so difficult to grasp its core. Only 4 numbers, yet they cause an infinite amount of thoughts. One of the main thoughts I have when looking back is how much I’ve like realized stuff about myself, my life and my choices. I guess Kylie was right in the end after all. Last year, I wanted to substract the pure essence of I. Instead of focusing on the effects, I wanted to understand the cause of my deeds. I discovered so many layers of myself I didn’t even know I had. And I did all that to be able to know who I am, what I needed to do and how I could avoid making the same, painful mistakes I’ve made in the past. Instead of trying to understand others, I realized I didn’t even understand myself. And how can one help another if one doesn’t know how to help him or herself first? So that’s what I did: 2016 was a year of self-realization, self-reflexion and self-recognizing. Who am I? Why do I do this? How come I feel the same emotions over and over again, only in different situations? Those questions guided me to the place I am right now. The answers I was searching for were not to be found in others or in circumstances, but only in my own mind. I’ve realized that life isn’t a vicious circle like I thought before – it’s too random for that. However, in the end, everything in life can be reduced to thesis, antithesis and synthesis. Life is constantly opposing, unifying and becoming something else. And you can’t have any control over it. The only control you have is over your own choices.