Hey there!
I actually planned to write a Monday Matters post about a different kind of topic today, but I just wasn’t feeling it. That’s why I decided to move this subject to the next blogisode of Monday Matters and talk a bit more personal to you this time. For the peeps that have been following me for a while now, quite some time has passed since the last time I gave you an update about how my life’s going (minus the usual ramble in every single post, haha). Well guys, if I could sum up these last weeks/months in a couple of words, it would be: stress, too much fun, fake people and real friends. Yup, definitely some contradictio in terminis going on over here, haha. Let me explain.
“If you surround yourself with fake people, the chances of you getting fake as well are pretty big.”
I’ve been through a rough patch a while back and I have to say, I’m glad it’s in the past. It’s still hard sometimes, especially the fact everything turned out exactly the way I didn’t want it to turn out, but it’s for the best. I want to surround myself with real friends and leave all those negative and fake people in the past. And I ain’t missing them, let me tell you that.
But, don’t you worry. I’ve done so many awesome and fun stuff things lately, I don’t even know where to begin. Okay, I do know where to begin, because I keep repeating the J. Cole concert that I went to this Saturday in my head over and over again. It was the second time seeing him preform live and damn, he killed it even harder than the previous time! I also feel like my blog and Youtube channel are finally growing. I felt like I was kinda stuck for a couple of weeks, but now I truly notice that you guys love the things that I write and share with you. I’m really grateful, just so you know. I also met so many amazing persons these last couple of weeks (+ chilled a lot with my other friends) and it makes me so happy. I used to put so much energy in people that didn’t even deserve it. And because I don’t have them in my life anymore, I feel like I ‘attract’ nice people again. Okay, it sounds weird, but it does make sense to me. If you surround yourself with fake people, the chances of you getting fake as well are pretty big. And vice versa of course.
“I really need to step my game up, but instead, I just feel like resting and going on A vacation.”
But, I think it’s due to all these fun things that my stress levels have been even higher than normal: for every fun thing I do I kinda feel guilty, because I actually should’ve been studying… I guess it’s because I didn’t have the best grades previous period and this period is probably one of the most difficult ones yet. So I really need to step my game up, but instead, I just feel like resting and going on a vacation, haha. I’m also doing so much extra stuff beside my regular schoolwork, sometimes it feels like I’m drowning. I’ll manage tho, I always do and I always will.
So yeah, that’s kind of it. I don’t know if this made any sense haha. In a nutshell: I’m focusing my energy on things and persons that do deserve that and I’ve cut off all the persons and things that didn’t. I do have to focus more on my school work, because the stress + guilt are killing me. I have no idea how much these personal things interest you, but I guess they do, otherwise you wouldn’t be reading this shit now, haha. Thanks for your support though. By the way, if you have any requests for further Monday Matters blogisode topics, let me know in the comments below. Now it’s your turn. How’s it going?
HOW’S YOUR LIFE GOING SO FAR?
xo Lilia
P.S. I’m also giving away some Planter’s Summer Essentials!
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deze broek is echt fantastisch!
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Heftig om te ontdekken wie je echt vrienden zijn. Snap nooit zo waarom mensen zo nep doen. Is het onzekerheid dat ze zich geen houding weten te geven of jaloezie? Who knows. Gelukkig gaat het verder goed met je. Geniet lekker van je me-time. Ik vind het ongeloofelijk knap hoe je ‘alle ballen’ altijd hoog weet te houden. Liefs
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Precies dat idd, snap ik ook niet. En aww dankjewel, ik weet het soms ook eigenlijk niet hoe ik het doe, haha. xo
Heel goed dat je je niet meer bezig houdt met de neppe mensen om je heen. Ik ben er de afgelopen weken ook achter gekomen wie mijn echte vrienden nou eigenlijk zijn. Al het negatieve laat ik gewoon lekker achter me! Keep up the good work, girl. x
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Ah dankjewel! Ben blij dat je hetzelfde hebt 🙂 xo
Haai Lilia!
Ik heb erg genoten van deze post. Want het was een moment van herkening. Fake people achter me laten en dichtbij mijzelf blijven, de stress voor het laatste blok en the guilty feeling Wnr je iets leuks gaat doen en denkt aan alle dingen die je eigenlijk nog vr school moet doen.. Eigenlijk rust nodig hebben mr nu juist moeten knallen. Jeps. Thats me too.heel veel succes.maak anders eeb blogpost als je je jaar hebt gehaald. Lijkt me leuk je persoonlijke ervaringen vaker te lezen. Xxx
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Ben blij dat je het leuk vond om te lezen en dat het herkenbaar voor je was! En goed idee, zal ik zeker doen 😉 xo
I know what you mean about attracting nice people. Makes absolute sense. If you put out a certain vibe you will attract a certain type of person.
So glad to hear that your blog and youtube channel are growing! I am a newish follower myself but I love what you are putting out. Keep up the good work and hang in there!
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Glad you understand me! And thank you so much, means a lot! <3 xo
Thanx for sharing. pretty cool
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Heel vervelend dat je soms door een dal moet gaan om erachter te komen wie er echt toe doen.. Fijn dat het nu weer wat beter gaat. En prachtige foto’s!
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Dankjewel <3 xo
Energie stoppen in mensen die het niet verdienen is een fout die ik ook zo vaak maak! Fijn dat je weet wie de mensen zijn die er écht voor je zijn en andersom. Succes met je studie!
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Dankjewel Emma! xo
Real friends deserve the energy, other not so much. It can be very troublesome when you have to work more for a friendship than you’re getting out of it. Glad you feel a lot lighter now. The guilt is eating me up. Even writing a comment here, could be time even more well used (altough I like reading you posts ;D you get it).
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Aww I feel for ya <3 xo
Verstandige keuze! Dump de penisvissen, want die zuigen letterlijk het leven uit je, ze gunnen je niks en doen de raarste dingen om zelf in het goede daglicht te komen. Ik vind je outfit trouwens echt dope, vooral hoe je broek gescheurd is en een beetje baggy. 🙂 Succes met school dame, zet je beste beentje voort. 🙂
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Hahaha oke, jouw comment maakte me echt aan het lachen! Dankjewel <3 xo
Goed bezig, Lilia! Je kunt je tijd inderdaad beter gebruiken, tijd is toch al schaars en mensen die het niet waard zijn, zijn een bodemloze put. Veel succes met school!
Gave outfit trouwens, lekker stoer 🙂
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Dankjewel Izzy <3 xo