PERSONAL | My Life Lessons of 2016.

PERSONAL | My Life Lessons of 2016.

2016. Only 4 numbers that symbolize every second, every emotion and every memory I feel and have felt this past year. Only 4 numbers, yet so difficult to grasp its core. Only 4 numbers, yet they cause an infinite amount of thoughts. One of the main thoughts I have when looking back is how much I've like realized stuff about myself, my life and my choices. I guess Kylie was right in the end after all. Last year, I wanted to substract the pure essence of I. Instead of focusing on the effects, I wanted to understand the cause of my deeds. I discovered so many layers of myself I didn't even know I had. And I did all that to be able to know who I am, what I needed to do and how I could avoid making the same, painful mistakes I've made in the past. Instead of trying to understand others, I realized I didn't even understand myself. And how can one help another if one doesn't know how to help him or herself first? So that's what I did: 2016 was a year of self-realization, self-reflection and self-recognizing. Who am I? Why do I do this? How come I feel the same emotions over and over again, only in different situations? Those questions guided me to the place I am right now. The answers I was searching for were not to be found in others or in circumstances, but only in my own mind. I've realized that life isn't a vicious circle like I thought before - it's too random for that. However, in the end, everything in life can be reduced to thesis, antithesis and synthesis. Life is constantly opposing, unifying and becoming something else. And you can't have any control over it. The only control you have is over your own choices.

Realizing this made me see my life in a different perspective. I was always the girl that had everything figured out. I knew what I wanted and I thought that achieving what I wanted would make me happy. But did it really? Understanding that life is constantly in flux and motion, and thus, you as a person are too, ánd that that's totally okay, felt really hard and really relieving at the same time. You are not the picture that you paint. You are you. With all your doubts, choices and freedom you have.

Previous year, I thought I wanted to be a criminal defense lawyer. I thought I met this great guy and I had something special with him this time - multiple times. I thought I knew what I wanted and how I wanted to achieve it. Now, 365 days later, I'm making plans to leave everything behind and move to NYC. I've come to known that the love I've given was abused. But most of all, I've realized that I know nothing of what the future behold for me. I've learned that nothing life is certain. How deeply I wanted to follow a certain path I've laid out for myself. But the harder I tried, the more I understood life is not to be fixed. Although this was really hard for me to accept - now I've realized change is okay. Everything changes and is in constant motion and flux. Like a river: constantly flowing with new water, while still remaining the same. And so is life.

 

PERSONAL | My Life Lessons of 2016.

"Everything in life can be reduced to thesis, antithesis and synthesis. Life is constantly opposing, unifying and becoming something else."

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MY LIFE LESSONS OF 2016.

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So, to summarize, these are the life lessons I've learned in 2016:

  • The process of self-growth/self-realization takes a long time. The more you start opening up to yourself, the more you understand you're not even close to figuring out yourself. That's okay.
  • Change is inevitable. You are not the same person you were before. You don't have a core. You are just changing energy. And that's okay too.
  • Don't give away your love. You should give it to yourself and only if you're completely certain, you can consider giving it to someone else. You don't need anyone else to give your love to, loving yourself should make you feel loved. Imagine what would happen if all the love we had for others, we used to love ourselves?
  • I love philosophy. Honestly I LIVE for it. It's like my brains are in constant euforia whenever I'm thinking about philosophical problems, especially when I realize that I've learned something new.
  • Believing in yourself is essential. I've always believed in the choices I made. They may not always had the best results, but they've always taught me something. The place I am in right now is already a step closer to where I want to be than a year ago. And I would never have been here if I did listen to others and did not stick to my own guts. So, believing in yourself, your capacities and your dreams is not unrealistic or naive, no it's the key (major key haha) to getting anywhere in life. This is one of the most important life lessons for me personally.

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It's strange: I remember writing my final blogpost about the life lessons of the year of 2015 so clearly - and now I'm here, doing the same thing, exactly 365 days later. 365 days ago I had 5.000 amazing Youtube subscribers. Now, I can add 95.000 of you to that number. I feel so grateful for each and everyone of you. I love you, and you definitely made my year complete.

It's time to conclude this chapter. And I would describe this ending as bittersweet - my favorite flavor. The sweetness of the things I achieved this year, the happiness I felt and the love that I've received. The bitterness of the struggles I had to go through, the people that I've lost and the energy that I've wasted. But in the end, 2016 was just a steppingstone to all the things life still has planned for me in the future. It's time to say goodbye now and leave this road behind. 2017, I'm heading right to ya.

 

THANK YOU. JUST THANK YOU.

xo Lilia

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11 Comments

  1. December 31, 2016 / 11:20

    Leuk geschreven! Wat leuk dat je naar NYC wilt verhuizen. Ik wens je veel succes voor 2017! (:
    Liefs,
    Yara
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  2. December 31, 2016 / 13:33

    Thanks to you too, Lilia. Can’t wait too see what you will achieve in 2017! ❤️

  3. Izabela
    December 31, 2016 / 14:30

    I feel speechless right now. You’re so amazing, so inspiring, you’ve changed my value system since I had started watching you in September. I am so glad that you’ve decided to share with world your struggle (thoroughly, not only the good, sweet, insta-perfect-type false images) , because it exerted a great influence on me and motivated me completely to work hard for everything.
    I adore you for your honesty and a wisdom despite the young age. It’s great to see someone so clever and eager for seeking the best version of you in defiance of other people. I think you redefiended the definition of young woman making videos on YT (If you know what I mean), ’cause they so full of valuable content, not only vacant videos about make up or clothes (It’s craziness what’s going on on YT recently).
    I would like to meet you Lilia someday, of course it’s likely possible (I’m from Poland, Slavic Sister) but who knows.
    Take care, Sweetheart. Looking forward to seeing some of your new videos in 2017. 🙂

    P.S. If you could share with us list of valuable books about philosophy, I would be delighted. (It doesn’t have to be straight from you philo lectureres, but… still) :))

    • Lilia
      Author
      January 5, 2017 / 17:27

      Aw thank you Izabela <3
      I’m reading Nausea from Jean-Paul Sartre now. xo

  4. December 31, 2016 / 14:38

    Go for it! Je kunt het. Fijne jaarwisseling en heel veel geluk en gezondheid in 2017.

  5. December 31, 2016 / 19:45

    I loved this post and your video was fantastic! Congratulations on reaching 100,000 subscribes! You deserve every single one of them (and many more). I just want to say thank you for your vlogs- they have motivated me throughout this year to work and study hard to achieve my goals -I am serious. After every one of your videos I remember why I am working so hard and what I want to achieve. Here is to 2017!
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  6. December 31, 2016 / 23:12

    Congratulations on reaching your goal of 100,000 subscribers!! Best of luck with your move to NYC so excited to follow you on your journey. Im currently in my final year of undergraduate law and watching your videos makes me realise that once you put in hard work and are determined to succeed everything will work out in the end.
    I have just posted my reflection on 2016 too.
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  7. January 1, 2017 / 14:05

    Change is inevitable YES!!!!!!! Ik kan dit echt niet genoeg benadrukken! Heel mooi artikel! Ik ga ook je video nog even bekijken. Oh en Kylie had het hélemaal juist, 2016 was all about realizing stuff 😉
    Naomi in Wonderland recently posted…Goodbye 2016: I’m so glad you are over

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