I never believed in the law of attraction this generation holds so dearly. I grew up believing in a different concept. The concept that what comes up, must come down again. The idea of life being both good and bad; yin and yang.
You cannot receive something from life without it taking away something from you as well. If you try to win without losing, you are trying to cheat life. Even the best cheater can’t out-cheat life, or rather death, itself.
You will never be able to manifest a perfect life without pain, sorrows, or losses, because life itself is not interested in perfection. Life is unbothered about you living your best life, what you deserve, or want so strongly. Life just is. And in its being, life will perpetually try to find its equilibrium: to find peace and balance in an existence of opposing influences and forces.
It’s not about manifesting the good and avoiding the bad; it’s not about always winning and never losing; it’s about finding your inner peace and power, to experience life fully, and to learn how to deal with both the ups and the downs.
2020 was a year that reminded me of this concept again. From day to day normalcy I took for granted, to the life & career changes I worked years for to accomplish; this year was supposed to be thé year I would figure everything out - instead, 2020 challenged everything.
Now that I am concluding my 25th year on this planet, I look back at a year that will forever leave its imprints on me. Aside from 25 being a confusing year in itself (I don’t think any of my 25-year old friends are in the same chapter of their lives: it’s either moving in together, getting married and thinking about kids, or living their best single life, traveling the world and focusing on their careers), moving to a new country and city during a pandemic is not the best timing. I struggled with feelings of doubt, loneliness, isolation, anxiety & uncertainty. I hit my lowest of lows, and almost let these feelings get the better of me.
And right when I was ready to give up, the scales of life tipped to the opposing side. The strength to trust in me and my path returned to me, and made me believe in the timing of life again. I found new love in and for my life. I was able to travel to one of my dearest cities in the world: New York City. A place so magical, it always reminds me of the inner magic in me. This was life telling me that what goes down, must come up again.